What Are You Doing?

Doug came home from church and said they talked about what you are doing to bring in the real meaning of Christmas.  I'm the first one to admit...it's been hard to get into the spirit and feel of the joy this season brings.  Usually December is my month, everyone that knows me knows how much I "usually" love December...It's been a real struggle though.  Our family has been thrown some pretty serious stuff and sometimes it seems as though it just keeps getting thrown our way.  So as I was staying home with Josh on Sunday, and read my son's blog...I knew what I was missing.  It's interesting to see how your children have grown spiritually...so thank you Charlie for helping me out  alittle.  I decided I was not going to let the adversary win this month.  I made a goal to read the conference talks by Christmas, or close to it.  This means reading at least 3 a day and in my life, that is a challenge.  Even though there might be tantrums thrown, Pandora Radio (Polar Express) is on just a little where I've been working on Christmas gifts.  For me, this is a start.  The boys want to still make goodies and we have started reading the advent stories that were given to us long ago.  
I'm not saying it's going to change what we are going through, Josh is having some issues that some might pre-judge wrongly...but for heavens sake, it's major surgery, no one knows the pain he is in or if it even worked...so no blame is going on him for my short comings.  We've had hard Decembers before when we almost lost Josh 2 years ago, and really we didn't care what we received, we were happy that Josh was alive and Charlie was safe on his mission.  Well, that might come to pass this year...Josh is alive and the boys will be all together here at home for Christmas.  What else could a mother ask for.
So yes, tears and many more will follow this Christmas season, but I wasn't raised to give up or lose faith, and I'm not...This Christmas will be a wonderful one...no matter else comes our way!

 So BACK OFF, you stupid black cloud and go visit someone that CARES!!!!